When I grow up...

Do you remember back in the day when we were younger our favorite saying was, "When I grow up I..." I found myself saying that the other day and I had to stop and think. That time is here. Not that I am claiming to be so grown up, but I am 22 yrs old and live 8hrs away from my family. I work I go to school I am responsible for everything I do...so techincally when I grow up is here starring me in the face.
Then I look around me and I see facts to support that idea. I have two friends that have their own houses. I have mad friends getting married. I have a few friends that have been married and have kids. I have a nine to five. I go grocery shopping. I schedule my own doctors appointments. I have mad bills. I am in a way grown and it is strange to me because I have putting it off for so long, but it still has happened. Someday is finally here and its time to realize I am grown.
No, that doesn't mean I have to change drastically. I can hang with my friends at the mall or have a ladies nite out. I can go out and have fun. But it also means I have to look at things more maturely. Like finances and making sure I button up my jacket when its cold outside. Its new and strange to me. But all in all thats LIFE.

P.S.
Check out Little Brother's new album The Minstrel Show. Oh yeah and add to my wack list, BET (it was wack before, but they solidified their own wackness) http://www.sohh.com/thewire/read.php?contentID=7519

50 cent is so wack...

Okay so I try not to give too much energy to wackness. But 50 really caught my attention with his stupid comment about Kanye. "50 Cent: 'I Feel Like Kanye West Is Successful Because Of Me'" Straight from MTV.com. If you go on to read the aritcle, 50 says like its a good album but I don't know who Kanye West is, I listen to his music and know that he has been in a car accident but that is it.
50 are you effin kidding me. Your first single off of this album is Disco Inferno...what do I know about you other than you like sex or exploiting women when you say"shake, shake, shake your ass" But when I listen to Kanye's first release "Diamonds from Sierra Leonne", I know and understand the conflict Kanye with in himself when it comes to wanting to do the conscious thing by not supporting the diamond industry or just the simple temptation to rock diamonds like everyone and be iced out. I swear 50 that is much deeper than anything you have ever told me. And I really can do analysis all of 50's songs and Kanye's songs and can tell you much more about Kanye. But whatever!
I don't know what Kanye could have done to outsell 50. Maybe get shot 9 times. Or maybe if Kanye beefed with Common or Mos Def or John Legend. Maybe his sells would have been number one for the year.

I just had to get that off of my chest... 50 is wack...so is young jeezy and so is jeezy's verse on Mariah's Shake it Off remix




ps. Hi, this is Twilla's co-worker, Suzanne. She stole my desk to bring you this blog. She texted me a haiku that I thought she should share with you all:

Young Jeezy is whack.
My God, Young Jeezy is whack.
Young Jeezy is whack.

The end. Have a great day! =)

Things that make you go "hmmm" (or go"somebody has a lot of times on their hands")

I received an email from a friend (who will remained unnamed) who got an email from another friend (whose name will also be withheld) with an interesting comment. If you know the person then the email is funny. But at the same time it makes you think. I personally find it somewhat interesting and love to see how people think about things. Okay imma stop talking and let you read it for yourself:

Date: Fri, 9 Sep 2005 12:51:07 -0700 (PDT)Subject: Re: Oh my God to inhumanity
This is supposed to be a wake up call to black people to rally to start a new movement (nu nation). People don't know this but the murder of Emmett Till is called the catalyst for the civil rights movement. Emmitt Till was abducted and killed on August 28th 1955. Four days later, his mutilated body was found. 50 years later, Hurricane Katrina reached Louisana on August 28th 2005 and it took four days for the people at the Superdome to be evacauted and the people at the Convention Center to be reached. This isn't a coincidence, think about it!

Yeah so lemme know what you think.

So, its been a full month since I've updated. Thats how busy I have been. Yeah but there has been so much going on. Wedding showers, movies, school, etc... Things that have been bothering me lately besides the obvious, Hurricane Katrina, I finish course work this year! What am I going to do after that. I mean yeah I have a summer job lined up in DC, but what about when I move to NYC or LA? Its like graduating from college all over again. And yeah I am 22 but I honestly have no idea what I want to do in my life. Yeah I want to act and direct but how am I going to get there. Its really like what in the world is next, I can see the big picture but I don't how to get there. I know other than my screenwriting class and my advanced directing class and thesis, that is going to be the thing that completely blows me away.
The other thing that bothers me is the Hurricane Katrina Relief Effort. I am really moved by the thousands of Americans reaching out to help our people. It is really beautiful. But I am bothered by the discussion of whether the slow relief is a result of classism or racism or just being unprepared. Despite what I believe, there is a flaw in our system and more than likely if anything was going to happen to threaten our homeland security, I don't feel safe. Even though I live less than 5miles from the White House, I don't feel safe. That is what needs to get in order.
By the way, I am proud of Kanye. Not only for his off the hook album, but for stating what he believes in. Its one thing to put it in your music but a completely different thing to say it live on TV. Congrats my brother Kanye, you just got yourself a new FBI folder! People would argue that his statement has no merit...c'mon, yeah right, whatever. Others agree with what he said and feel that he did not say it at the right time. To those, there is never a right time to do the right thing. It just has to be done. On live television on NBC during a telethon was as good as any. Thats all I have to say about that.
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I don't know the next time that I will update this thing but until then go with God and peace!!!