Cures for Homesickness

Just last week, I went to my home state of NC for a friend's wedding. This trip could not have come at a better time. The previous two weeks I had been experiencing some serious homesickness. I've never been homesick before...and with being out of the house for a while, I think I've been its time that I got struck with it. But anyways, my best friend came to LA to visit me, which made helped ease the sickness. When we got to NC, I felt soooo much better. Who knew to feel better I just needed a whrilwind vacy with the friends. Sure by time Monday came around and it was time to go I didn't want to leave rehab. Yup I was fighting tears and silently protesting, but sure enough I got on the plane. By the time I landed at LAX I was okay and ready to go on with my life. What is it about
this closeknit circle of 13 people that made me feel like I just spent a whole week at my
parents' house? Honestly, I don't know. Most of us have been friends since freshman
year. Most of us lived with each other at some point in time. We have gone through some serious ups and downs. We don't live right down the street from each other anymore but somehow we are still just as cool as before. We keep in touch via text, email, IM, and the occassional phone call. It seems to be one of those situations that even if we don't talk all the time, we have each others backs in both the good and the bad times. Like all families, we make it a point to come together during weddings and its like a big family reunion. I don't when we became like family. People on the outside will probably tell you that we always have looked to be mad close. I don't know why when so many other close friends have fallen out and stopped talking to each other, we are still going strong. I don't know what it is. I don't really care to break down the science of it. I am just grateful to have friends like family that I can turn to. I am grateful that we were able to come together this past weekend. I am grateful that they keep me motivated and got me out of my depressed rut. Yup, I love you all. Can't wait to see ya'll next time!

Breakthru

This blog is a day late but I have a testimony and I have got to share.

So yesterday I was having a really low, I can't take this anymore day. I slept until noon. I got out of the bed only to get my Haggen Dasz rasberry sorbet. I crawled back in bed and chatted on gmail with my roomie.
I told her how I was tired of this whole job search thing and I just wanted to crawl into a whole and emerge a whole new person. I applied for a few jobs but mostly i just stayed in bed and pitied myself. It was really a sad situation.
I decided to change my facebook status to say "Twilla is screaming God, I can't take this anymore!" The moment I pressed enter, and I lie to you not, my phone rang. On the other end was the guy that I had interviewed for on Friday. This is the job I told my parents and close friends that I really really wanted. Everything about it from the owner, to the position, to the office environment said that this job is for me!
Everything this weekend felt like I was just building up for me to step in my destiny. Hanging out at star studded events, hanging with friends, talking about traveling the world...everything. But by the time Monday rolled around, all that confidence got up and left...
Back to my story, the guy on the other end was telling me that I had gotten the job. After the conversation, I hang up. My hands shaking and then I start boohooing like a baby. Everything that I went through this past year...all my emotions, my ups and my downs, my growing, my overwhelming support from my family and encouragement from my friends...everything HIT me at once! And all I could say was "Thank you God!"
I realized that if this is what BREAKTHRU/VICTORY feels like then everything I went through was worth it!
I don't feel like I am done in this phase of life and that I still have a long way to go but regardless I am grateful!

the champ is here!