Lately I have been feeling like the entire world has been against me and waiting for me to fail! I almost gave in! However, I awoke with the following on my heart!

"I was held down and feeling depressed
Forgetting the struggled required to be the best
I know I must press
I look in the mirror
and my reflection could not be any clearer
God's purpose for me
Is all I can see
Can't stop, won't stop
My place in this world is on top!
HIS daughter running the industry
That's why I got to grind and be busy
That's why I got to move to the hustler's city
That spirit is in me!
Can a minor set back take me out?
So silly I was to doubt
my destiny. My eye wandered off the prize
Forgetting a pheonix will always rise!
I know this life ain't made of no crystal stairs
but He will never put more on me than I can bear
So when it rains
I won't complain
I know at times I will cry
and I will tire, but I can sleep when I die
He not only called me to be Defiant
He ordered it, drew up a contract and signed it!
And I thank God for granting me
This moment of clarity
So that I may walk in TRUTH!" ~ A Truthfully Defiant Spirit by taeAmin


I guess I am realizing now more than ever, a big part of being Defiant...is faith. Defiance often rubs people the wrong way because it is unconventional. Who wants to be the exception to the rule? Who wants to be challenged on things accepted as the standard? If you are going to Defiant, you have to know that you are so, not to be cocky or arrogant, but because you refuse not to spread light everywhere you go. And if Defiance is part of your higher calling, than you have to have faith to walk in what you know to be truth, because it will often be tested! My truth? I got to take over media and hip hop! Thats always in my mind and has been for the past 9 years. I have to 1) believe that it is written, 2) i gotta hustle harder than Jay Z to do so, 3) realize that with no test there is no testimony!


DISCLAIMER: This post does not neccessarily reflect the beliefs of Blogspot. Tweezie doesn't take it to church too often, but doesn't mind going there every now and again!

Arguing with teenagers!

This past week while I was at home, I had the pleasure of having a pleasant conversation with my 15 year old brother and 17 year old cousin. We talked about everything ranging from college plans, spirituality, and boos. Conversation was pleasant until we started talking about music. At first they were like "you cool, because you like rap and hip hop!"

I mean I've already been thru highschool so that whole validation thing from peers isn't neccessarily pressing to me, but it was flattering. I have a way with the youth and I like that. But here is where the problem came in, I mentioned enjoying music from people like Common, Talib Kweli, Mos Def... and they cut me in mid list. They were like "they are all one hit wonders!" My jaw dropped to the floor! If you know me, you know that I LOVE those rappers, like they are great to me, so I know these men are anything but one hit wonders.

But here is the killer...MY OWN BROTHER was like "yeah, they been around for ever, but did any of them ever go platinum, they not as established as Young Jeezy." My heart sank... I felt that somehow I failed as being a postive example in my lil brother's life. Like I suck really bad!

I've never wanted to be one of those people who give young people a hard time about music. Like "Good Grief!" can we be expressionistic like ya'll were...but my goodness!!! Young Jeezy, more established? Definately has more commercial appeal (he would have a fit if you called him commercial) but not more established! This convo wasn't even about who the best rapper was or nothing, just about who we like to listen and they had to go there!

I couldn't say nothing! I saw my age clear as day then... 1982 never looked so far away before! But before you know it, I will be telling my kids why Jay Z is good listening music, better then anything they will ever know about... *sigh*