The other night I went to bed super early with a super head ache, sore throat, and a slightly depressed demeanor. However, I had a completely simple dream (the one I could remember for the night) that lifted my spirits the next morning. The dream was so simple in fact that I don't believe that it had any message of good tidings or a great job but it made me feel alright about life.
Before I go into the dream, let me quickly highlight my week. I worked a temp job the first three days, then I had interviews the next two days. And although the interviews went well, one job is not hiring for a while and the other job doesn't pay nearly enough. I also turned down one interview because the pay simply could not pay half of my monthly bills. I'm thinking, with experience and two degrees I should be able to make an okay living....right? And while I DO realize I am super blessed to finally be getting interviews, its somewhat depressing interviewing for jobs that can only offer you a very small amount of money and no benefits. Welcome to the Industry, right???
In the dream, I was driving in the Hills, Baldwin Hills to be exact, I got to this one very very steep hill that my car was just not feeling. This hill was so steep that it was actually scientifically defined as a mountain, or at least it felt like it should. My car couldn't make it up there in the Drive gear so I had to shift to the Drive 2 gear. Killa Cam was still trucking it real slow, so I put her in the D3 gear. Although she was making better progress, it still wasn't enough progress for me, so I turned off the air conditioner (because we all know that makes a difference) and she started moving a little bit smoother. But my car was working it! Everything was working, the engine sounded like it was doing overtime and I know my front wheel drive was definitely getting it! But we got to the top of that hill!
When I woke up I felt much better but it wasn't until a couple hours later that I even remembered the dream. I smiled as I begin to think, my journey is definitely an uphill battle and thank God its uphill! I might take a whole lot more work than I want to put in but as long as I am ascending to higher heights its all worth it!
To affirm one of my best friends' thoughts, Life IS a Beautiful Struggle!
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